Waiting In Between

I suspended myself in this 
the in betweening place
the neither one or the other place
no name
no final judgement
it’s all been put on hold and I wait
undead
unalive
dabbling a little at
processing my thoughts in this unreality…
Too much, too heavy I groan…
but a birdwing flutter of will brushes me to try,
try and stand up…
 Swiftly defeated I crumple beneath
the burdens crushing 
will and life like a wine press
even when the grapes were dry and hard and had nothing to give up.
I am waiting
as I always do
for the next
the if only
the Perfect Moment of clearing.
I have not immersed myself in this life,
I held fast swaying
swinging above it like an apprentice tightrope walker,
so neither can I let death have me entirely.
I wait
in between
for a judges grave pronouncement,
a booming gavel,
 to set me free.
Falling into one thing or another,
falling out of in between,
with finality.
©jayetomas2015
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About chimerapoet

I write. I write a lot. A. LOT. There are times I am half blind with a sentence ricocheting off the walls of my stupid, cant be shut off to save my life, brain. I am miserable until I get it down on paper. Punch it up a bit. Usually cross out half of it. And then breathe. Relax. Only to do it all again..... But I just thought that was me. How I am. Not a writer....noooo...not me. Writers are.....writing people. People Who Write. REALLY write. Write things that matter. All grown up very important things. Not.....me. I am just a scribbler of sorts. And I was/am content with that....if it's true, well then....a scribbler am I. Until the thought wormed its way in to my brain (the furtive sneaky bitch) that maybe...just maybe...that is writing. My style. My strange way. But....still writing. So here I am at the dance. Not sure I know any of the moves and the music is entirely mine. But.....only one way to find out. Would you care to join me?
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3 Responses to Waiting In Between

  1. thefeatheredsleep says:

    Beautifully written

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